Hello wonderful Athena!!
I hope you, Joe, and Koko bean are doing amazing. I wanted to detail my success stories as I’ve mentioned in the comment on your latest video.
Pre-warning: these successes all happened around the same time but have all been a result of you and Joseph’s teachings that I have been studying in great detail. So this email may be a little more wordy than my usual. Apologies in advance! 🥹
The story starts back in 2021. I had started getting really severe pains in my kidneys that I had later found out were kidney stones. Working in the medical field I was aware this could be a random occurrence for people so I wasn’t too worried in the long term of things. However, over the next two years the pains and stones had became unimaginably worse. Multiple days of writhing in pain on my bed or couch with no possibility of relief or even the physical ability to get myself to the hospital because I live alone and had no assistance. Come July 2023, my parents decide it would be wise to go to a specialist because the frequency in which I had been getting these stones was becoming concerning and the fact that I wasn’t passing any stones while being in so much pain 24/7 was even more so. Skip forward a few details and we found out I was in complete renal failure. I was only 21 at the time so this was really worrying to both my family and medical team. I had massive obstructive stones that were damaging both kidneys and needed to be removed surgically. They were and it was later found out that these stones would be recurring. This worried me because I was so afraid of the pain at this point and also had acquired a severe level of kidney injury that permenantly damaged my kidneys.
Fast forward to today, I am not on any medication, my kidney function is controlled, and I have NO stones. This was such a relieving success as I had spent so much mental energy and inner conversation to remind myself of the fact that I am not ill in any way. What happened two years ago was simply a blip and I do not and will not have to suffer that pain and physical strife ever again. I did not want to change my diet so I simply didn’t. I think what it was that finally realized my success was the fact that I simply could not and would not suffer that way again, and in that decision I have began to live exactly as I did before this occurred. I have not had any close calls or recurrences. I am not worried about my renal health in any way and the final cherry on top was my nephrologist (kidney doctor) had recently told me she was insanely proud of me and my progress and that I am doing so much better than it seemed like I would a couple years back. This interaction was just 2 days ago and I am over the moon about it.
Now for my mental health success. This story starts last year. In January of 2024, I had found out my paternal grandfather had unfortunately passed. I knew he had some health problems mainly to do with his heart, but what I had not known was how fast his health decline was. This made the news of his passing seem sudden and unusual. I was devastated especially for my dad who had just lost his best friend. I do not do well when my parents don’t because they are my best friends and I love them so dearly. And after accepting my grandfather’s passing was when I found out, 5 months later, that my maternal grandfather had passed. Again an issue to do with his heart despite not having any previous known cardiac problems. My mom was crushed and therefore, I was as well. It was another sudden and unusual passing that I could not wrap my head around. I spent the rest of that year working to accept their passing and thought I had done that. Then, suddenly, in the beginning of this year around March, I started to notice that I was getting heart palpitations so frequently to the point it was affecting my studies. I am planning to go to medical school and come from a family of doctors so I am more than well informed on medicine and have never been any kind of hypochondriac in any way. That seemed to have flipped, I was suddenly so sure I was on the verge of a heart attack and again, living alone, this scared me immensely. I spoke with my dad and he explained I was having panic attacks, which can make you feel like you’re dying. He did also mention that this is commonly associated with depression and anxiety, which I knew, but I also kept denying I was struggling with. Before these symptoms happened, I was not depressed or anxious in any way that I could perceive. But regardless, I took his advice to go to my psychiatrist to get myself diagnosed and treated. I was diagnosed with Health OCD put on some medications and adhered to my treatment plans. I did feel markedly better over time but still denied I was depressed in any way so I made sure to consult my psychiatrist in when it would be safe to wean off my medications and was told I would have to wait some months before I do so.
And so I took this time to open myself up and study my brain. Take a look and see what was going on with myself that had caused this mental upheaval. And ultimately I realized the undealt with trauma of losing my grandfathers in a seemingly sudden way had made me internalize their deaths to a literal degree. I thought I was next. I then sat down with myself and told myself it is okay to be sad about their passing but it does not make any sense to let that sadness reverberate back to my own health. I reassured myself in MANY ways that I was healthy and safe but I had not given myself the time or mental space to grieve. So I did just that, I talked with both my parents about this and we had a very liberating back and forth from the perspectives of children and grandchildren. This ultimately helped me separate myself from their health and untimely passing. And today I am feeling a million times more like myself again and even better than I did before. I am coming off my medications and I have absolutely no symptoms of any panic, anxiety, or anything of the sort. I’ve felt this way since September and just keep getting better.
And the weird part is that my mental health has shifted in such a way that it has even fixed many things that I had been working so hard to fix in terms of my SP journey. This by itself seems so wildly out of the blue but it’s become so hard not to notice. For instance, for years now I had avoided keeping a certain kind of social media on my phone because it is a social media I removed my SP’s follow from and vice versa. I had attached some weird discomfort to the application because of this. Now that seems so silly to me and I have since redownloaded the application and post on there regularly. We don’t have each other on any socials and while before that would deter me from using them, now I use them and post on them as I please. My socials are afterall for me and not for him. I’ve also become completely unfazed by certain words or stories in relation to cheating partners, ghostings, bread crumbing, what have you. Before all this I would be mildly bothered and attach a negative generalization like “yeah what man doesn’t do that” when I would hear of such things and I would become annoyed with myself as it was clear I still had some issues in my assumptions when it came to my SP but couldn’t figure out how to fix it. Now, I have no reaction to it whatsoever, and I don’t attach any kind of assumption to it nor do I feel the need to. My SP is someone who loves me as I am and would not do a thing in the world to hurt me. Who would want to hurt the 8th wonder of their world you know? That’s just what it is, it’s a fact.
Thinking about my assumptions before makes me feel so silly but truly all I needed to do was just direct a lot of attention towards myself. I was so scattered and I didn’t even realize. I guess it truly does take some breakdowns for you to get that push you need doesn’t it? 😂
All in all, so much of my current success is something that I truly relish in. I’ve also heavily utilized your hypnosis videos on your channel just for that extra sprinkle of magic. And naturally it’s all worked so magnificently in my favor. Your and Joseph’s teachings have really given me so much invaluable information. I’ve been able to study myself in ways I wasn’t aware of before, it’s so incredible to behold. As always, I am forever grateful to you both. Thank you forever, Athena.
Sending all my love to you, Joe, and sweet Koko Bean