While living in Japan one day I had a spark to improve my Japanese skill so I applied to one of the language exchange apps. Soon I met this young handsome 19 year old guy who was working in Japan’s special forces. It has been his dream since he was a kid, he even attended special school just to be able to join this special forces team. It is very difficult to enter, only a handful of people are accepted. He made his dream come true in hopes of helping people. When it comes to us there was some romantic spark right from the start. While we went on one of the meetings that rather seemed like dates we talked about aspirations and future. I was filled with an inner conviction in that moment that my words are very important to him for some reason. I told him that he needs to chase his desires instead of surprising them and being just a cog in Japanese society or something along the lines. He became somewhat weird afterwards, very deep in his thoughts, and days following that meeting he became more distant with me. One day when we met he said he had something to tell me. He told me that my words left an imprint on him and he quit Japan’s special forces and instead he is departing to the war in Ukraine. His desire to help people was not fulfilled in the peaceful Japan, and some of his comrades went to help in the Ukraine, while he didnt have the guts to drop it all and go there too. The distance that he started to show was because he did not want to get our attachment even stronger for each other, and despite me never saying I like him or anything of the sort he told me to find a good guy and that I will be okay without him. I cried for days afterwards in fear of him dying in war due to my words, plus losing such a wonderful person. He was a very handsome (like k-drama actor), extroverted, gentleman and pushed me out of my little shell to experience the world. After around 4 days of constantly crying, one moment something shifted in me and I decided that I’m done being hurt by people. I wiped my tears away, rearranged my room and felt like I entered a different state, I didnt feel like crying anymore. I sort of passively insisted that everything will be okay and cockily said to myself that he wont go anywhere, he will stay in Japan. When doubt would occasionally arise I would calm myself down with that idea that he will stay. In the end he left, and I got a message one day that he was in the airport waiting for his flight. I broke into frustrating tears, thinking that nothing ever goes the way I want. I was sort of disappointed that I couldnt manifest it (..I know we dont manifest anything, we shift our consciousness through infinite realities with ourselves). After crying the last time, I gave up, I stopped caring. Several days later I got a message from him that he is in the UK now, that he was not able to get to Ukraine as he was arrested in China who suspected him to be a Japanese spy. I didnt know about it, but during the time they were arresting some other Japanese people accusing them of being spies or what not. Maybe they still do that now, I’m not aware of any of this. They detained him for several days till his innocence was cleared. He said he is not sure if he wants to experience this again and was debating if he can even reach Ukraine at this point. Again with some inner intuitive conviction that my words are important to him, I told him that everything is okay, just come back please. He has a somewhat stubborn personality and always accomplishes things once he decides upon, yet it didnt matter. Within myself I felt like this is what he needed to hear in that moment, a comforting reassurance to come back. He came back to Japan, celebrated his 20th birthday, enrolled in university and went to do exchange study abroad. Despite the tears and fears the very subtle inner conviction is all that mattered.