CIRCUMSTANCES DO NOT MATTER
So Athena !!! As promised, I’m going to give you my… I’m going to call it an ongoing success story !!because altho 3D doesn’t look exactly the way I want it to at the moment …it’s getting there and it has happened a few times already , with my SP each time evolving and becoming more and more conformed . AND I apologize– I was going to send you a voice note for this but I am sure all of your devoted followers would much rather hear your lovely accent than my East Coast accent. 😂😂🤌🏼🤌🏼
ok. so guys… please please believe me when I tell you if I can do this any of you can and I’m here to tell you that I’ve had some of the worst circumstances, imaginable, and against all odds I have gotten my ass P to come back to me despite multiple third parties despite police involvement. Yes, I’m not kidding (nothing abusive don’t worry.!) i’ll get to that. Despite him telling me, I ruined his life, which was not true at all. In fact, it was quite the opposite, but he was just projecting despite him, saying some of the most horrible things, and then coming back and telling me that I was his everything, the love of his life and had me upside down and backwards so many times any Sane person would have said walk away from this individual, …but not so easy when you love someone ehh? so don’t let anyone discourage or dissuade you when your heart wants what it wants because it can have it. truly.
since 2019 I have been on this journey–
I have never loved anyone as I did my SP not even my ex-husband and I know that no one has ever loved me this way either. tumultuous at times yes but also just as much full of love and passion and deep deep connection and I am actually crying as I am talk messaging this out. (bc i do love him still) here is the one thing I have never doubted through any of the heartbreak is that at his core he absolutely loves me more than anyone, and I know that any other third-party he had ever been with in between didn’t hold a candle to me. In fact, he came back to me multiple times, saying exactly Word for Word, what I believed in my mind.
I think I’ve gotten him back about three or four times now and although that’s not the goal– we don’t want to have to manifest SP’s back multiple times…. each and every time it has taught me a lesson and he has shown me what I need to work on within myself and apparently I still have some tweaking to do.
i have gotten him back after two months, seven months, a year and a half. And each and every time he has come back a bit better. we do have a little bit of a problem with his alcohol and awful friends –and so that was one of the things I was working on .
this is a man who is much younger than myself -we spent holidays together w our families. he has come with me to medical appointments, supported me through some very painful times in my life, embraced my daughters as his own. This was the most significant relationship I’ve ever had outside of my 15 year marriage.
this very last time when SP came back, the drinking had significantly reduced and the toxic friends were for the most part (not completely out of his life The way I had intended. ) However he did move states away ( from me as well!) lol
so that he had way less contact with them –so I consider that a win. lol and this very last time, he seems more mature, able to have conversations on things with me that we never had before we started talking about going into business together rescuing animals. Something that is close to both of our hearts and one night at dinner, he blew me away with things that were so profoundly beautiful and better than I could’ve ever imagined or hoped, for here verbalized what I had held in the back of my mind for some time that he felt he probably sabotaged us all those times because deep down he didn’t feel good enough or didn’t feel man enough to give me what I deserved, which sounds like a load of BS but I knew he was being sincere.
this was REAL. and raw.
I saw him cry, I actually felt bad for him in that moment, and all of the terrible things we said to each other, and horrible circumstances from the past …just seemed to evaporate. I do remember consciously letting go of the resentment I hold for him for so long that’s what allowed him to come back in. I believe you guys I had my moments of doubt and worry and fear, and crying and wanting to give up and being a hopeless, and I’m telling you do not give up hold the belief in your mind picture what you want it to be visualize it hear your inner conversations with your person because my God it’s magical the way this universe reverberates thought transmission is super super real
I feel like I’m going all over the place here but that’s the kind of storyteller i am so I apologize LOL …but. I feel you will enjoy this one the most because this was the worst period of circumstances for us and if he could come back to me after all of this happening, against all odds- I’m telling you you guys can absolutely get whatever you want with your SP, u just have to believe it’s possible. don’t obsess. just decide. and let it go. and live your best life. They will come back.
I want to tell you about the time we had a seven month I’m going to call it quiet time lol he had just professed his love to me telling me he wanted to move in together, etc. etc. and as coincidence or synchronicity is it would have it I saw him and caught him red-handed with a third-party not even 24 hours after he said all this to me and I created such a scene in public – oh I let him have it. screaming. crying. him threatening to call the police only because he was guilty and so embarrassed and then I offered to let the girls see my phone.
At this point now she was crying !
I eventually drove off, heartbroken, destroyed, completely soul crushed
And he never even contacted me for months …he knew he broke me
He then tried to come back to me again. saying i can’t let you go. i love you. you’re my world and i want everything you want.
how i wanted to trust this. but then, that old monster of doubt in fear creeped in, and I started imagining scenarios where he was lying to me and sure enough…..
I found out she was still in the picture
so I did with what any petty girl Does… I printed out all of our texts and pics to prove he was lying to her. I found out where the girl lived. I mailed them to her about 100 pages. he went wild, threatened the police again all of this stuff, right? it was crazy , and then I’m talking there were private investigators involved ..craziness, pure craziness!!
it was one of the lowest points in my life here I was hurt, angry, confused, full of unanswered questions. I wanted him to fix this, and he couldn’t, and I knew better
mind you,
then to try to do any of this in the 3-D, but clearly my human temper got the better of me and after this, I was like you know what that’s it !!!!effing done with him!!!
I literally remember throwing my hands in the air and saying like God take this because if you don’t, I’m gonna go to jail 😂😂. so i left this situation alone. I literally did everything I could to erase him from my life. I blocked him, destroyed all of our texts or
/ pictures, and everything!! I was done done done !!!
Then months later after doing a self-care evening, I remember feeling so at peace and I wasn’t even thinking of him or anything to do with the situation. I was literally just in this very calm peaceful space just enjoying my pets in my cup of tea …
i heard a knock.
he showed up at my door, begging forgiveness telling me he changed
… that he did the hard work, and was still gonna keep becoming better. and also that he was moving out of state and wanted to make things right with me. I was both happy and heartbroken At the same time. I didn’t make it easy for him. I let him know how he destroyed me for the better part of a year, and he did seem very remorseful, again there were tears. He did stay with me that night, i was weak ok? lol
and promised that if I gave him another chance that he would do his best to try to make this work, and although it did for a while, and he flew me to his new house, where he moved to, and we spent a wonderful week together …after that trip things began to fall apart again,
I had gotten very emotional at dinner one night and started reacting to silly things.
we did speak a few times after that but it kind of just fizzled out. It was no big fancare or fireworks like in Times past– this was different. It’s almost like he ghosted me. He just stopped responding …in a way this is more hurtful. this is how you leave me after almost 5 years of this wild ride ??
and I know he loves me. I still don’t doubt that. I do believe thats why this happened again, and why this length of time is because I said to him not to come back to me ever again until he is over all his past crap and gotten his act together and is able to convince me consistently that he has changed so I believe that he’s gotta work through some things.
but I know he will be back again. I don’t doubt that for a second . I don’t even care who he’s with, or what he’s doing. i know he’s coming back to me next — as the best version of himself
and his exact words to me was i ruined his life because I set the bar so high 💅🏼😂what I’m telling you is each and every time he comes back it has gotten worlds better and I see the changes… in both of us. I know this sounds exhausting and believe me to live it kind of is exhausting but I have made the decision that you know what …
that’s it. I am done with this merry-go-round and we are getting what we want the way we want it once and for all and if I can do it, you guys can too. I have dated other guys in between but none compare to him and I know it’s the same for him I’m already seeing some birds before land and some signs -whether you believe in those or not I do because they have happened before he’s come back every time … reliably.
tons of love to all of you on this journey. It’s not easy but if you want this bad enough you can have it !! just please don’t give up. !
your desires are there because you’re meant to have them and thank you Athena you’re such a genuine, sweet soul. I’m so glad I found you. 🤍🤍
L (USA)