Hello Athena, sorry it’s taken me so long to send this to you. There has been a lot going on but I’ve finally got around to tell you how I got a purse that’s worth more than $300 at the time for free.
I think I was in my room at the time when I was googling things and decided to Google purses. Normally, I don’t really care about purses but sometimes I like to look at them. I came across this really pretty purse that I liked and felt drawn to under the images tab and decided to click on it to go to the website. Just looking at the website I knew this was probably a fancy purse and sure enough when I saw the price I immediately thought oh hell no I’m not paying that. It was over $300 although I don’t remember the exact price for it other than that. For some reason a part of me decided to save the picture to my phone and pretend it was mine as if I owned it somehow just for fun. My thoughts were something along the lines of I’m going to pretend that I got the purse and that the picture gallery represents my home or me somehow and that by putting the picture of the purse there it means I have recieved it and I now own it. I was honestly just having fun pretending. But after that I never really thought about it much again.
This is where the bridge got unexpected for me. I struggled a lot with depression and suicidal ideation and that led me to end up in the mental hospital. There was a group of people there that were under a program and I guess you could say I connected with them. I managed to make friends with a girl that was there and when she got out which was later than me because of the program she was in we would talk and hang out every now and then. She later asked me one day if I wanted to go get a facial with her and that it was going to be at a hotel. I was so confused because I didn’t think you could get a facial at a hotel but because I also struggled with social anxiety and had people pleasing tendencies I told her I would go and she said to dress nice. Turns out it was a damn Mary Kay event and I was already regretting it and thinking they’re just gonna try to trick me into joining. After the demonstration was done of course the lady offered that we join Mary Kay and that if we did she would be our consultant. I believe my friend joined first and I felt pressured especially because she joined and I didn’t want to look bad or so I thought in my mind back then so I also joined. They later called and said I had to purchase products to be able to actually join which cost $100 to purchase the things I needed wholesale which made me anxious about why I was doing this to begin with but I did it anyway because I had already said yes.
I had actually purchased about $50 worth of products from the consultant I was under but because I had just moved to a new house she got confused about how to send them to me so she began saying she would give me the products at the meetings we would have for Mary Kay. Well months went by and my friend who turned out to be really toxic left Mary Kay and I honestly sucked at selling so I hardly ever sold anything especially with my social anxiety. What’s worse is that I was still waiting on my products that I had ordered from my consultant. There was always a reason she couldn’t give them to me even though some reasons sounded legitimate and I had compassion for the situations she would tell me about. Yet somehow she was still having mini gatherings where she would sell products every now and then but for some reason my products despite it having been months were nowhere to be seen. Even when she was at the meetings she would say she forgot or not say anything at all because I was afraid to confront her and it’s safe to say I started disliking her.
So about a year after I had joined Mary Kay they announced a contest and that the winner would be announced through their Facebook group. It was a hat ticket draw and whoever sold more items would get more tickets under their name put into the hat they would draw the tickets out of. They mentioned the consultant that I was under and said she was a really good seller and would most likely have a lot of tickets under her name. I just thought of course she would and yet my products are nowhere to be seen make it make sense. Then they showed the purse and I felt an immediate rush of excitement and a really loud automatic thought popped into my head that practically screamed “That purse is mine!” It shocked me because it was just purely elation and the thought seemed to have originated out of nowhere but I chose to go along with it despite how weird it was. I was thinking about the Law of Attraction and how they teach you need to be in a good mood so I tried to stay positive. Because of that thought I really wanted to get that purse and make it mine and also because I didn’t want to let that lady win. Despite my social anxiety I wanted to at least up my chances and get some sales in.
Well yeah about that… I sold one lipstick, Athena. ONE. DAMN. LIPSTICK. And it was to a lady I knew who was looking for a specific lipstick color she wanted that she hadn’t been able to find in a while (I guess I was her bridge, ha) But I just thought damn I’m gonna lose there’s just no way. I felt my chances were screwed but I still had hope. I found out that one consultant had more than 10 tickets under her name I don’t remember how much exactly but it was a lot… of course…
The day came where they announced the winner on a video in the Facebook group. My nerves were high and I was trying to hold on to hope but I was filled with mostly doubt and disbelief. Of course, I was thinking about the Law of Attraction teachings again and thinking crap I shouldn’t be doubting or I’m not going to get the purse which only made my anxeity worse and amplified my doubts and disbelief. I clicked on the video and the lady announcing it started the video talking and laughing and saying she was excited about the person who won. Because I was doubting so much and thinking about the Law of Attraction teachings, at some point I just figured yeah I don’t think I won especially with one lipstick and my thoughts but I still thought to myself maybe…? Nah… And then she said my name, still laughing and saying she was so happy I was the one who won probably because she knew about my social anxiety issues I mean they were very obvious. I was honestly confused that I won and somewhat surprised. Something didn’t make sense because the Law of Attraction would essentially say it shouldn’t have worked and yet it did.
A few days or maybe a week or so later after I had gotten the purse, I was looking through my picture gallery and came across the picture of the same exact purse I had just won. I was confused and thought there’s no way. How did I not remember I had a picture of it? I looked at the day it was taken and it was from 5 years ago and immediately remembered what I did. Honestly I thought I had attracted it using the Law of Attraction somehow and that felt like confirmation but I was still confused as to why I still got the purse despite the teachings. Now I know it was through the Law of Assumption that I recieved the purse because I assumed it was already mine even if symbolically. And despite my doubts and disbelief, it still manifested. I know you asked me how did I cope with my doubts well I wasn’t lmao I tried but clearly I failed but that didn’t seem to stop the manifestation. Perhaps it was by holding on to hope or maybe it was my dominant state of the purse being mine which I’m assuming that was the case. But I do hope this story helps someone who is having trouble with manifesting
Oh side note, I never got my products from that consultant. Someone else gave them to me instead of confronting her and I left Mary Kay that same year.
Thank you for letting me share this story!