Okay so this sp was not someone I ever wanted to be in a relationship with this is a very random not really even a proper crush sp it started over a year ago when I joined the gym.
I saw a massive poster of this cute man I thought he was the same kind of Asian as me and I was like ah wow nice I’m glad he’s successful in his field. I had a fleeting thought that if he ever saw me he’d have a crush on me.
Then a few times after that when I went to the gym with my sister I could see this cute small man just keep glancing my way while I worked out & all I could think is weirdo get a life. ( later turned out to be the man in the poster LOL)
Then one day about a month later the gym doors weren’t working & the personal trainers he was one of them was opening all the doors for everyone with their own pins. I remember this day in particular I just felt very beautiful like I was glowing & my sister turned to me & said wow you are glowing you look beautiful. Anyways I got in to the gym & my very causal sp at the time just turned to look at me I smiled he smiled he turned back again even though he was with a client to just look at me.
At some point later he came up to me & my sister asked us our ages where were from stuff like that I just had this confidence that he would an inner knowing as everyone says. He asked for our instagram handles that was the end of that. I wasn’t bothered as at the time I was unhealthily obsessed with an sp who I am now over.
Then one day an email was sent to everyone that the gyms would be closed & open again at a certain time. I wasn’t sure so messaged this sp personal trainer on insta he read my message but didn’t reply. I felt really bad about it like I was suddenly not desirable or all these untrue things etc or that he found me annoying ( inner child wounds taking things personally) also because before that there was an incident where my sister asked him if he could tell her where a certain weight might be he looked really annoyed almost as if he had pulled her a dirty look. My sister and I both stopped and looked at each other shocked thinking that’s with this guy then we both said nope don’t take it to heart to seriously we create meaning to things he’s just busy and tired from his clients he feels overwhelmed it’s not about us. She also knows about the law and knew I had a small crush on him.
Fast forward id been getting back in to Neville I love his books & I had reflected on how every inner conversation I have especially with people I trust in my mind always manifests it just does Neville was right. I’ve manifested so many things by just hearing my sisters voice in my head agreeing with me or confirming what I want. I had very stubbornly decided I had enough of him walking up to me during my workouts asking me what I’d be doing this weekend but not asking me out. So I decided I’d hear a simple conversation me saying to my sister sp name just asked me on a date and her say oh wow something like that and I’d also randomly always hear her telling my mum how much this man likes me he just adores me.
From that moment onwards he’d send me a couple of flirty dms the conversation would die down but I didn’t care as my confidence was building and I was busy plus I wanted other people this sp wasn’t on the pedestal.
Slowly my assumptions of frustration would turn in to oh this sp is just really nervous around me he can’t wait to ask me out he just finds me so beautiful he’s not used to aiming this high ( big headed I know lol but it’s an honest thought process )
Anyways I’d still randomly hear those inner conversations with my sister regularly anytime that sp popped in to my head it was automatic. I actually couldn’t switch it off my mind just didn’t entertain any other belief or thoughts about him when I’d think of him.
Eventually I found him a little irritating as he’d constantly look for me in the gym interrupt my gym sessions and I could see he was getting nervous around me just finding any excuse to talk while I was sweating and dying from a workout not fun.
Anyways I was dating & getting to know a new sp at the time who Athena and I worked on together lol I dumped him. But non the less he came back to. wink
I had noticed this old sp posted dates on his story I thought it was cute I was like yesss he’s finally moved on he’ll leave me alone in the gym. He even tagged the girl so I was like ah sweet genuinely happy for him. But a fleeting thought was like it’s not going to last they’re probably just friends & he still liked me stuff like that.
Then one day like a month I get a dm from him asking me on a date totally out of the blue btw! We both didn’t text each other or anything I said sure I couldn’t believe my eyes at the message & messaged my sister like my inner conversation saying he asked me on a date. Anyways sp & I were texting I asked what about the girl he posted dates with whyd that end he said it wasn’t going anywhere. ( strong assumption was true that it wouldn’t last ) but I was still sad about my sp2 not working out but I said yes to the date but I had lost complete interest in this sp so nearer to the date I cancelled I know now if I had a stronger desire for him I’d have gone on the date and probably heard a beautiful end. As my intention with this sp a year ago was just to date him to see if there’s any chemistry as I grew I realised on my part there wasn’t.
This is not the end though lol I thought after this he’d leave me alone but nope.
A couple of nights ago in the gym he came over ran away with my phone so I’d have to physically chase him in the gym I felt embarrassed as there’s some hotties in the gym I didn’t want them to think I was not single. Then he came over again took my water bottle and gave me some electrolytes without asking. Tasted good actually. He and I have a regular game of scaring each other to now we’re casual friends now so whenever I’m in the gym he will scan the room for me and surprise me by shaking me and sometimes I’ll do it to him to I’ll just tickle his back to scare him. My sister always says how when I’m not in the gym he’ll look at her then look around the gym for me which he confirms by asking me whenever he sees me again. I’m actually going to manifest him getting a gf now though because I’m enjoying being single & there’s so many hot guys I don’t want them to think we’re involved. It’s starting to work he told me about a date he’s going on soon but still he flirts with me so now I hear often how we’re good friends etc.
So I actually told Athena this for her viewers to have confidence, relax treat your sp as a normal human being inner conversations are so powerful don’t argue with your sp in your mind once you’ve decided your outcome it has to happen if you gently persist, change the way you view yourself, them & yourself in relation to your sp. I personally love the inner conversation method Neville speaks of. This journey started last year October 2023 my end happened in like July2024 & I could have had it if I hadn’t wanted my sp2 and hadn’t been obsessed with some other man during that time. But looking back the time didn’t bother me or matter cause I was just busy enjoying my life he wasn’t the be all and end all of my happiness & now I can’t get this man to back off even though I’m changing my inner conversations with him because the seed was planted and unbothered now I have to let it die which I am and I’ll persist in a new story for him. He’s actually really sweet & lovely so I’m excited for him to date a lovely girl. I hope this makes sense.