Hello, lovely soul.At the very beginning I would like to thank you very much for your dedication and your peace which helps in manifesting and understanding this process ( I found your teachings around August of this year and was really lifted up inside because everything started coming together after 8 years of trying to manifest my specific person and not only my dear !!!)
Also, at the very beginning I would like to say that I would like to write here about all the details but there is simply too much of it!!
My story with SP began when I met him by chance, neither of us were specifically looking for love considering the fact that I was 21 and he was 35.
My mentality back then was… Quite infantile, very indecisive, and unfortunately I was also very traumatized by life.well..lets put it that way : i was dragged through the mud,I was exhausted, I was very hurt. And it was at that moment that I met my special person… I will also mention that he was also very hurt and traumatized
When we first met I knew right away that there would be something between us and he knew it too because he spoke about it very clearly and very loudly,There were plans for the future, there were big words, I felt great love and he was filled with this love! Unfortunately, I did not realize that he had very big financial problems and problems with his ex-girlfriend.
Shortly after we met he simply stopped talking to me, I was a complete mess, I was totally depressed, I also fell into anorexia and mental problems that pushed me to the point of hating myself.At one point I even thought it was about my appearance, that maybe I wasn’t pretty or shapely enough,even tho,He never said anything negative to me about my appearance, but unfortunately my brain started creating such cruel scenarios that started giving me THAT feeling 😭My condition, which was cruel to my body and my psyche, lasted for 5 years!!!!!At some point I came across a video about the SP manifestation, I was fascinated, but when after several months of various techniques that took up a lot of my time every day, nothing changed..I was simply devastated, to put it mildly. 🤦🏻♀️
I went back to a very famous manifestation teacher for help, but that person recommended me to do affirmations for my concept and for a specific person ( I would like to mention that unfortunately, it Wasnt any good..) I had the impression that my affirmations for a specific person simply had no effect, on the other hand how could they help me? Since my mental state was really crue,For example: I would affirm and meditate for two hours a day, imagine different scenes, and then I would get really paranoid that after so many years nothing had happened. 🤦🏻♀️I should also mention that I have autism and was diagnosed before my 30th birthday – I had the impression that all these techniques made me even more paranoid because I couldn’t understand why he did it, I kept asking myself the same question?? For 5 years my affirmations were very messed up because I couldn’t understand in my mind why he did this to me..So you can imagine that what I affirmed, I then automatically questioned in my internal dialogue in my head- It was like a mental prison because I couldn’t understand that I had to work on myself and not on him,It was a path that was cruel to my mental health because it was only after five years when I found therapy that I started working on myself and began to notice that I felt better in my life…I must also say that in the meantime I had one manifestation teacher and then another coach, and they all told me the same thing, that I had to meditate and that I had to recreate the scenes of meditation EVERY DAY ,I really thought I was doing everything wrong because years passed and I wasn’t getting any results, you can imagine what was going through my mind as I was questioning myself all the time.Unfortunately, at some point a very wise person told me that these teachers were really damaging my self-confidence because I was getting such information from them : That I am affirming wrong, that I am meditating wrong, that there is something wrong with me since after so many years I have no results,WRONG ,WRONG WRONG 🤦🏻♀️I literally got feedback like this when I asked the questions what am I doing wrong?I will shamefully admit that I felt like crap back then..I stopped having contact with these coaches, and one day when I already decided that nothing would change in this matter, I came across the video ..ATHENA’s Video 😘You can literally believe me that I have plowed the entire internet for many, many years looking for different techniques and explanations on how to attract this person,I used various meditation techniques and turned to various people who gave me subsequent techniques in which, of course, I lost myself…. 🤦🏻♀️
I came across your video my dear I remember exactly because it was August and when I started listening to what you were saying I had the impression that you were touching all the notes in my heart,I understood every word you said and knew literally what you were talking about but at the same time I didn’t know how to apply it to my life.As I said, I am an autistic person, I lead a normal life, I have a normal job, everything is fine, but unfortunately I have some internal episodes,I don’t understand many social interactions, I don’t understand some of people’s sentences,I have to have my routine that I stick to and that’s why when I had the affirmation I thought I was doing everything right but I didn’t pay attention to the fact that all my affirmations were directed at SP…not me.
I also wanted to say here that for 5 years my affirmations were practically not affirmations because I was only thinking about this person, I was not conducting any positive dialogue in my head ,I kept asking myself why and what I did wrong, I blamed myself of course..So it looked like I was thinking about him positively with love but then 10 other thoughts appeared which were cruelly negative I even wanted to hang him at one point haha 🤦🏻♀️It took me a long time to process some of the information I heard from you, it was very thorough, it was very consistent, something I missed from other teachers ,I must also say that I could listen to one video even 10 times to understand exactly what you mean- At some point when I started applying all this, my sp started to speak… Believe me or not, it was such a shock that my phone fell out of my hand. 😂😂He called me and then pretended it was some strange accident, of course continuing the conversation with me and asking how I was doing bla bla ,I was so moved but panicked at the same time that I kind of screwed up the conversation. ( He showed up and told me he had a wife, so you can imagine my heart was similarly broken and I didn’t know how to deal with it)I was so maaaad about this conversation, I would say that I spoke to him a little badly ,I would tell him not to talk to me anymore and delete my number.( Basically our conversation went like this, he only spoke to say he had a wife and to ruin everything I was working on)🤦🏻♀️I cried for a good few days and then I decided that he wouldn’t dictate to me what I felt and that I was getting back on track! I felt a huge surge of strength, I focused only and exclusively on myself, I literally started to love myself for the first time in my life, I started to buy myself beautiful clothes, I started to take care of myself like never before! You can believe me that thanks to your videos I could believe in myself again and believe again that I am beautiful as I am..( Here I will also say that I never believed in my appearance because I was treated cruelly at school, I was bullied for 15 years) So my confidence was in ruins.
Anyways !! I focus on myself completely, I started dressing better, I started being a better person, I also started working with a therapist about my autism and understanding social interactions,I spoke to myself with beautiful words, I thought about beautiful things, but in the meantime I started saying very light and very pleasant affirmations about SP ( I also started to recreate very interesting and pleasant dialogues between me and him) I felt a huge surge of energy, and I felt like I had lost my energy by valuing this person for so many years 🤦🏻♀️
Seven years had passed and suddenly he started spying on me… It was strange to me because he always said he would never do that because it wasn’t his style,We renewed contact very suddenly, he simply wrote to me that he never had this wife and he doesn’t even know why he told me about it …He told me he felt so lost because he knew I was out of his league and he didn’t know how to get out of it and he wanted to feel better 🤦🏻♀️ great right? The funny thing is that I affirmed that he never had this wife and that it was a mistake and he reflected to me everything I thought 😂He started complimenting me a lot, he said he had never met a person like me and he couldn’t forgive himself that so many years had passed and he wasn’t even able to reward me for all that,I was very surprised and calm at the same time because he started to reflect everything that I already knew..Honey, do you see the difference in my behavior? At the very beginning I was paranoid, I was very afraid to talk to him, and at this moment I was calm, I was balanced..I understood that I had kept him on a pedestal for many years and he shouldn’t be there, I understood thanks to your teachings that the moment someone jumps on that pedestal, we already have a problem!!!
You can imagine that my affirmations or visualizations were very natural when I was washing dishes when I was taking a shower when I was exercising,I imagined the ring on my finger for three days.(it is very important that for 3 days in the evenings I usually replayed the story of how we were lying in bed talking to each other and I had a ring, then it was just so natural that I was fully saturated ,And of course he reflected it to me and said we should get married)..I only imagined the moment when we were already in a full-blown relationship and I no longer cared about the messages I wanted to manifest earlier! I started to feel empowered, I started to feel like I was finally out of a cage, like I was out of a mental prison ,And he literally reflected everything I said and believed about myself.- my Dear ,I tried to manifest a stupid message that led nowhere before haha ,I thought about it after watching your video..WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING ?! I don’t have to manifest some stupid message, I just got in the visualization of a stable relationship!!)
You’re probably wondering what my routine was? The funniest thing is that it never existed since I met your video 😘I was just thinking about the end result and having a very loving conversation in my head about it,I was no longer at war, I didn’t accuse him of anything and I didn’t ask why you did it, I was balanced and said that I forgive you..
It’s been 8 years and it’s really better than it ever was because I’m a better person, because I saw that it all comes from our energy and when we are in a very low state ,We will only receive scraps, yeah IT was lazy,Yes, it was very natural and very unforced and everything started to fall into place, of course I know that I screwed up everything for 5 years 😂But then when I understood that it all comes from us and we have to change so that everything around us changes, then believe me, everything has changed ! Our meeting after many years was very strange because I hadn’t seen him for so many years that I forgot what he looked like almost haha ,It turned out that he had cut his loong hair,I didn’t recognize him because he was athletic and took good care of himself before, and now he looked.. well, definitely much, much different.
He told me that I had changed a lot over the years and that I had not only grown up but had become more beautiful and that something had changed in my energy 🙂 He told me that I made him feel like a grandfather and that he really needed to start taking care of himself 😂He told me about everything that was happening in his life during those years when I was trying to manifest him and I think I will write something very VALID : When I tried to manifest messages from him, he told me that he wanted to send the message but then he backed out,He wanted to send and then he withdrew literally like my energy towards him then! He told me that he felt aggression from me, that he felt that he had screwed up completely and that I would never forgive him.
He also told me that he felt very low self-confidence from me when we met and at the same time he felt so low that he knew we were not capable of building anything He told me that he left me FOR someone who was a narcissist because he thought that person would make him feel better,But in the end this woman made him fall into an even worse depression and he started to wonder what he had done to break off contact with me…(Wow right)
I will also mention that he did not speak to me during all these years because he was simply afraid of me and he told me this directly 😂
He told me that at that time he couldn’t offer me anything, and after so many years when he saw how I blossomed he simply felt stupid and wanted to get back at me by saying that he had a wife 🤦🏻♀️He told me that he wanted to come and then he withdrew, he wanted to come and then he withdrew, and it was like that for many years, he couldn’t talk to me because he felt a wall.
It gave me a lot to think about because that’s exactly what I was doing all these years, I should also mention that I had various upheavals in my life in the meantime ,When I fell into anorexia and depression, I couldn’t manifest because I simply had dark thoughts about myself all the time. And because it lasted so long, it all dragged on..and on..
Anyways ! When we got back together after so many years, of course he started to reflect everything I was thinking but I started to question if he was the person for me haha The thing is that I have changed a lot and I have understood many things, my approach is also different and he has simply stayed in the same place where he left me.
When I met him after so many years, I no longer saw the idealized man I had seen eight years ago, I saw a guy who had very big problems,WHO is insecure ( At the very beginning of our relationship, I was very proud of him and I thought that I was not the one for him because he was so wonderful and I was a gray mouse! ) – When we met, I was the person who hid under a big tracksuit, I had huge complexes and he was shiny, he was wonderful…( I thought) Of course 8 years ago I felt not good enough to be in a relationship with him and of course that caused him to leave then ha ha You can imagine that I was constantly questioning myself and saying that he deserved someone better- yes ,He was in strange relationships and he told me that in each relationship he was looking for me, he was looking for my approach, my warmth and my light.
At this point where we are, I can say with full responsibility that we are in a relationship, he started processing his traumas, he started processing his life.
He also began to understand the manifestations and told me directly that he now knows exactly that our energies could not meet at that time because we simply pushed each other away 🙂
I talked to him about manifestation, I said that I had been trying to manifest it for so many years, do you know what he told me?
That he felt a huge pressure from me, that he felt he should do something but felt cruelly trapped by me, by my energy that most likely wanted too much- When I moved away slightly and 80% were affirmations about me and the other 20% were affirmations about him and finances, he suddenly woke up!
I must also say that my affirmations always started with I am – , I didn’t write anything specific down, I just became who I started to think I was!
I started to think very well of myself, my character really became stronger – If you ask me if affirmations work for everyone, I’d say no, I think this lazy technique that you often mention is amazing,If, like me, you have trouble processing certain information or have a problem with mental blockage- Do it in a very relaxed way, do it in a very non-invasive way.
Everything that I visualized in a very short time since August this year, everything started to come true..It’s only December and he’s started to send me marriage proposals and moving-in together proposals??can you believe?!?!
But this time I need to know if I want it at all,I worked on myself a lot, I devoted a lot of time to myself ( I spent over 5 years on HIM and I really didn’t think about myself at that time)
I was convinced that he was so idealized and so perfect, but it turned out that he is not like that at all…I was a bit disappointed,In the end, my manifestation was successful even after 8 years!! Now it’s just a matter of whether I still want it:)
And really remember that not every coach is a good coach to teach this technique, I think Athena You are an incredibly warm person and you approach people more psychologically than others, you approach them as individuals,Your techniques work because we can’t even call ourselves” technique” , they are so natural that they result from the state of things! I wanted to tell you literally everything here, but I probably left out some important details Haha .
Once again I would like to thank you with all my heart for how much you put into your videos.
I am so grateful that I came across your video, it changed my life 😘